ItsNotReal

2009-11-07T17:23:00.002+08:00

yo peeps

i just saw a Hottie and chatted wif her RL lol

so this few days i didnt really liked my mom and started to give her attitude

i've not been havin enough slp

volcanos are erupting

i've bought my air ticket to sydney and i think i'm meetin miss wong there :D

ok i shall buy some gifts for my beloved friends :D

i maybe getting an sub card or my mom will give me cash to spent there but i'm poor D:

OMG does singapore have anything nice? i got bored of eating the same thing over and over again

zzzzzz troubled over eating

anyway i wish pple will send me off to the airport :X sob sob

2009-11-03T16:15:00.003+08:00

ello peeps

i'm here to blog , my boring life lol

YAY the course was over and its holiday! finally , but holiday's not very good cause i nid to work for the whole of 2 months . but its good also at least i dont have to go sch and all the thoughts

so yesterday went back to sch and finish the last session of the course , kinda sad , andrew is a good lecturer and of cause he is a good teacher . he is goin back tot he US for his PHD

went AMK for lunch at sumo house , had some fun than took bus with jordan back home , dam it i got teased by the pple in the office sob sob , make fun of me seems fun :(

i'm in the office now so bored , yesterday i finally found my way through the funny thoughts , i hope it will last

2009-10-31T20:43:00.002+08:00

today was tiring , sweat for the whole day
wtf
woke up early today and went to the shop , i'm thinking that wont have to do much things so prepared myself , like so nice , with the hair and the clothes
went to the office with my breakfast and shortly after that had my lunch , too full to eat the delicious meal so sad
aft that i have not been stopping at all LOL
sweat till my whole shirt transparent
but during tat time , my mind was thinking nothing else but work good but not good at the same time
maybe i'll be goin to australia in november , shall buy back lots of gifts for pple >;D
but its not confirm sob sob
YAY! my dad promised me to go and eat mac tomorrow . yayness
yesterday i got pranked by my form teacher by sayin i retained but ltr confirmed that i didnt retain
lucky me
shall take lots of picture there if i'm goin :D

2009-10-29T15:11:00.005+08:00

CONGRATULATION ON QUITTING PREFECTORIAL BOARD! ;D
its been abit late but i hope u dont mind
here goes today woke up abit late and prepared myself
went to the bus stop and managed to catch the 6.45 bus , reached school and than hashim and the mutts came
they ram the ball here and there , always scared will hit me :X i'm gay hahaha
went for the communication thing , this time round there was no warm up . lesser fun today
but i still had fun
gave out all my sweets
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER! My dear cousin
cutted my hair and wanted to go to ian's house but the bus ride was too long so didnt go
i'm afraid that i'll have to retain , i hope i wont ...... i really hope i wont
i'll pass you the charger tml so plz bear it for the time being
i'm sorry

2009-10-28T13:37:00.002+08:00

about today .... it was fun , really fun
woke up for sch today , was dam tired but i still went to sch
there was onli 5 pple in class today 5!
i went and so left 4
so little pple my as well dont come le
but i'm glad they came because i wont be alone
ok so went for the course again
had some games to warm up and than started on the project work
i found it really useful , better than waste time doin nothing in class
while walkin up to the lab , saw her and passed her my psp . sorry i didnt have dj max inside
i couldn't find it
so had fun and laugh
yesterday i thought for awhile before i sleep
wondered some things and than i got confused again
WTF
i'm like a loner now , no night life . no life at all
just str8 go home aft sch , unlike last time , most of the time we went out and had fun
D:

2009-10-27T16:56:00.002+08:00

Ello pple out there reading
omg i didnt believe that i said thing that drunken night
i basically said everything , everything that i held inside me for so long
i got questioned by my dad yesterday
told him everything and stuff , promised not to get drunk till like that ever again
i hope i wont
today was erm kinda fun i guess
woke up abit late today , waxed my hair and found that it was too long . gonna cut it on thursday
same style but this time round its gonna be spiky
so today , in the morning took 54 to school , i miss the dam 851 bus
walked to school , there was not much pple in class today
only got me , dom , chin dah , wen bin , fat pork , mark , the 2 mutts and 3 more girls or something like that
went for the communication thing , this time round i was kinda scare but it ended up fun
i thought it was gonna be boring or sth
played some game , it was fun really fun
i bought my psp today with my stuff
wanted to give it to her but she wasn't in class at all and i nid to get the DJmax frm other pple
dam it
i owe you
didnt eat anything till end of sch
was dam hungry during the course and was freakin cold although i wore an jacket
but luckily i brought sweets , mint chocolate
the things i'm gonna say is gonna be random
when was the last time we went to the sky garden , i cant remember
the last time you said kua si mi kua , its been long enough , yet i still haven forget abt it
i cant remember when was the last time i send you home , the last time when we had lunch so on , the last time we went out

2009-10-26T09:56:00.002+08:00

screw yesterday , i was sad kinda
went out office to help out everything , cleared lots of thing and than went out to buy some food and recharge our fridge
went to suntec's carrefour to buy things
the bill was WOW
bought 3 bottle of beer , than home to cook and eat
'you changed my life , life was better'
you made my life healthier , learn quite abit of skill from you
had leafy green vege for dinner
salad and abit of rice
had 2 bottle of beer alone soloed it with a yogurt straw
that showed how sad i was
got abit of drunk by than but i didnt stop just there
had another half a bottle of vodka mixed with coke
at first i thought i was flying , my leg didn't feel the floor
i was jumping around and than pointing here and there
did lots of stupid stuff
than had a instand knockout
my mom came out , my grandma told her that i was drunk . the whole family woke up and helped me around
i felt bad now , they didnt have any sleep till at least 2am in the morning
i'm so sorry
my grand ma had to slp on the sofa instead , vomited everything out , had a super headache
it doesn't feel good when u're drunk
i cried if i didnt remember wrongly , yesterday was the only day i told my parents everything
the first time and its also the veri first time i'm drunk
still having a terrible headache and body ache now
my throat was burning when i was drinking the vodka , i didnt give a shit to it
beer + vodka mixed with coke = 5-20mins K.O
shit i gotta bath now , the drunken smell sux
gotta blog ltr

'its sad when people you know become people you knew . when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life . how you used to be able to talk for hours . and how now , you can barely even look at them'

2009-10-23T18:15:00.002+08:00

sorry for not being as active as last time......
since yesterday i have been in a course , a life learning experience . i find it kinda great
so yesterday the course started , knew some pple . know most of them but aft such a long time , not really close le
the lecturer was frm Republic poly , he is good really
so did presentation , i was VERY nervous but i knew i have to overcome my fear and there is no way to escape
pia everything
oh and yesterday in the morning i was on a SPREE!
gambling spree lol , won $7 . ate lunch and all than lose the money again but the lunch is free anyway hahaha
went back home alone but when the course was about to end i was thinkin of sth but i didnt expect it to happen , i dont know what is the price i have to pay for all this .
today was kinda fun , learned some skills again
woke up abit late but i manage to catch the 6.45 bus
went to sch and slacked for awhile . went for the course and dam it , got pang seh but its also a good thing cause if i dont get pang seh , i wont make new friends and get along with others
maybe some things being forced is good also
made some new friends but got an sad thing also , when i saw the name list i was happy for a moment but aft that i was like WTF , so sway
oh so today right , didnt have our lunch till 12pm . dam hungry sia
the course by right is end at 1pm but drag till 2plus but its kinda fun so i didnt give a shit
before the course end i think about something also and it actually happened
i told myself , if everything is goin the way i want it , what is the price i have to pay?
its equal exchange , there is no free lunch in the world
lucky i didnt took the cab , saved my money
just dota finish with hanjie , wasn't in the mood at the last game ps
maybe i shall not stay at home that often , making myself emo D:

'iloveyou'

2009-10-20T18:20:00.002+08:00

yesterday i argue with my aunty wtf
anyway yesterday i went to the office to help out ( have nth to do in there )
was bored at home , and decided to go to the office cause long time nv go alrdy also
didnt hav much scolding in the office but aft i come back home , my temper was like phew
dam hot
waited for 1 whole dam hour b4 i can use the com , when i use it , it was time for dinner so i was like arh fuck
prepared everything and my cousin sat back at the com , didnt even help US to do anything
i was oh ok lor like tat watch out , my blamed me for somethings and she didnt said it till i did it
i hate tat showed her temper and said everything also we do for you still wan give temper , wanted to shout at her but than again , she was our elderly . took a bathe b4 havin dinner to cool myself down , she said not happy than dont eat lah . wanted to skip my dinner but my cousin asked me to eat so gave him face and for my own stomach i did
washed what i used and she asked if the rubbish was mine and i said yes
she was goin to throw away the rubbish also , she wanted to help me to throw away as well , but i guai lan her . i say NVM i THROW myself
wasn't really happy yesterday at home
FINALLY EXAM IS OVER!
maths paper 2 was quite diff
i was sweating when i'm doin the paper , dam it . dam hot :X (or should i say i'm fat)
after tat went to play soccer with dumb mutt and mini mutt
saw her and didnt even tok to her today , dont noe why but its just .... arh
maybe its really not mine
met up with hanjie after his exam , ate KFC , the dumb mutt , mini mutt and hanjie keep on being a public nuisance but they are really funny
went up to the dumb mutts hse to wait for him and chase him around , slacked at the stair case outside his hse and waited for him but he went to buy bubble tea and sit outside at the banch . he really have alot of patience
aft that homed , today was quite awesome but my leg hurts

2009-10-18T12:29:00.002+08:00

yesterday was really shit
woke up at like 10++ went out to the office , go in onli got suan alrdy
FUCK UP!
had ba ku teh for lunch , plan to swim after that but didnt have the chance to cause my father and all went out .
watch some stephen chou's old movie in cantonese (i dont noe how to spell it)
its dam funny but kinda stupid
in 1991 there is alrdy doggy style LOL
dam funny
went to popular to buy some things and its 4 plus alrdy , didn't have the balls to sms .
dont noe why............
when i think back , i find myself being stupid :X
shopped awhile and homed
the worst part came ....
after dinner , played com for awhile and while playing my mom started naggin
naggin+du lan= leave ( ps hanjie)
after that went back to office to tak somethings , got a deep cut frm the dam fridge .
got stunned for awhile and the blood just kept flowing out , dam it
i cant really use the mouse properly now .... X:
its on the palm area , fucked

2009-10-16T15:17:00.002+08:00

opps its been 5 days since i last blogged...... alot of things have been happening for the past 5 days
let me think what i can remember and post it on blog
EXAM SUX TO THE CORE !
social studies i might fail but history i think i'll pass
hope i dont retain :X
good things happen for just awhile but what does it mean? i dont noe , i wish i knew
so yesterday was chem paper , slept for the past 3o mins and than woke up and do the dam paper
super diffcult can , but yesterday was quite ok i guess
was kinda lucky? :X
aft the paper ended slacked for awhile and than jaw called me to go to front gate , when i went there he call me saying that its the front gate , play me out lol . while walking down , saw lyching , she was like hi , waved back and passed each out . met them at the bus stop and while we are waiting for the bus , saw yanyan and asked me whether i wan to go to the church and play pool , declined her offer sorry :( ate breakfast with hanjie and all
walked around than homed
was wondering things while i was on my way home , got confused and broke down at home yesterday
thats all i could remember sorry
maybe yesterday was considered lucky

2009-10-11T17:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTDAY RUI MIN!
lol yesterday went out with jordan , ian , leon , hanjie , rui min
met them at 12 at AMK but we ended up late , so reach there around 1.30 or sth
ate mac and hanjie bastard jordan quite abit but no reaction
MRT-ed down to jurong east and took a bus to the snow city
alight 1 stop earlier but nvm
went inside and the first thing i did was blow air onto hanjie face LOL
its super cool! the smoke when u're breathing
the "snow" is not actually snow , its like ice and some chemical . went inside for 2 hours
me and hanjie didnt rent gloves and its -6.4 degree
our hands and face was actually freezing
we cant say superman inside there
it sounded like suberman
lol
rui min used her bare hands to take the snow and than put inside my shirt , i was shivering
dam cold can
when we touch the "snow" our hand was numb , ahhaha
tok quite a few pics but we didnt buy it cause it was $5 per piece
ALL OUR ASS WAS WET , LOL!
bused back to jurong east
decided to go to orchid to eat
bus-ed there and saw chio bu but sad sob sob
aft the super long bus ride , out asses are still wet D:
walked to ion and settled out dinner there
the bill was $80++ close to $90
paid her back
hanjie and me said we went to the toilet and we went off to buy her birthday cake
i hide it behind me and she actually didnt see it at all , maybe 4 eyes are not enough :X
had ice cream and they suggested to go to my house to party
cab there and i went up to get the lighter down , we walked around the whole of ion and we couldn't buy lighter
went up the car park to party , bought voka down and each of us drank abit , not mixed , pure mango voka
aft tat mix with coke and rui min took another mouth full or sth , scare she drink till drunk so i kept it
they all left and i went back home
i got cake on my face , everyone had some thx to rui min

seems like i cant hide anything from my dad anymore , he saw through everything D:
avoiding? no idea , no comment , hopeless fellow like me is gonecase already . GG

2009-10-09T22:26:00.002+08:00

this morning i had a dream , a dream tat i would never even think of
i dream tat my ex called my name and i was toking to her like last time
OMFG everytime i dream of girls , things will be impossible
this morning i plan to run for the whole of the PE lesson , i thought i could but i cant
ran for awhile and felt tired slacked and play around
had 3 period of history and 3 period of SS , felt veri bored and slept
subra told us some hints for the paper
bored
had recess with manoj and the mutts
they played basketball aft tat lol watch them play and laugh quite abit on the outside
had chem aft tat , her lesson was totally boring
maths was shit also
studied after sch
till around 2 plus 3
took bus home and slacked
saw my cousin and his GF at home , did all the chores and plan everything .
i dont noe how i felt
its just WTF

2009-10-08T14:54:00.002+08:00

yesterday was totally SCREW UP!
i cant take it anymore , i bought myself a pack of cigarette smoked it and had dinner , drank Kopi-C
didnt noe why but i just feel life for me is just fuck up!
broke down yesterday , parents came back late and they are like totally EXHAUSTED!
i did all the chores at home yesterday , make my home look more beautiful
when my parents came back , they saw me and asked me if i'm alright
i said yea and my dad told me i dont look alright , my eyes are like weird and i just went to bed , cant slp and watch anime with my cousin till like 3am
didnt have enough sleep
in school today was not very good
didnt even have jokes for me to laugh except for some dumb actions
i guess its time for me to take a break
sorry i broke my promise again , its not the first time already
slept for most of the time today , i hate myself
tomorrow i have to make a trip to suntec .....
i wonder back , why did i broke down yesterday and i found out why
maybe what my cousin said made sense
maybe its true
i feel so cold , alone at home .
i wondered are you waiting for me or is it too late already
i dont have a answer for myself , i dont noe
wished i had someone to hold me
today english watch some movie
CME became bio lesson
chinese , slacked all the way
didn't feel happy at all
went down for recess , saw her frend and pointed middle finger at her for scolding me yesterday . didnt eat much for recess although my stomach is grumbling
slept for maths , didnt listen much for bio , F&N was totally shit
my day is gone like that , wasted another day of my life
i dont know what i live for
i hate myself for being so soft hearted / fragile
hashim was sad today also i guess but he acted crazy and happy , not he usual him at all
still planing for rui min's bday
shall blog later , when i feel better or have something else to post

2009-10-07T17:42:00.003+08:00

today was erm.... not fun but no boring either
went to sch , had history for the first 3 periods
kinda fun and quite ok lah , not veri boring
aft tat was maths
slept for the whole maths lesson
had chinese after that
sat with jordan , yanyan , jasmine , mark , dom and viknesh
tok cock abit and i guess no feeling bah
got pang seh by them , i dont noe what is goin on but i tink they dont really like me
so what can i do ?
ltr move to sit with dom and gang
he tried to find trouble with the sec 2s i tink
but failed , scold finish chee bai than he laugh
lol he joker sia
went for recess and so on
heard jordan bought his itouch for 468 , there is cheaper than tat , just abit cheaper
planning to save up money and buy it
recess sat with manoj and gang
after school went to AMK to buy some stuff
ate macs and the worst thing abt today is i bo tai bo chi tio gan
haiz maybe i'm not born to be good to others
dont blame me in future that i'm not good at all
knn blog abt pple also cannot .......... heng i blur blur just now
phew
i dont noe why but i'm not mad at all today despite all the scolding and stuff
once again i have to do it , not for the sake of myself but everyone around me
thinking thinking and thinking , brain cells dying D:
its so boring at home alone , but i rather like this than my grandparents here
i wish i could invite pple over for party or dinner

2009-10-06T17:21:00.002+08:00

yesterday and today was totally SHIT

i dont noe why but i have no mood today

omg i sound like i'm PMS-in

forget it

on facebook , my daily advise is forgive even if you cant forget

but i cant post it , maybe its still not time for me to forgive

today met hanjie and went into sch with my cousin , crack some jokes and laugh abit

headed to sim lim to buy some stuff than orchid to service my parents business phone

than went back to the office , i'm here now

the whole trip took us the whole afternoon

didnt sent my grand parents to the air port as i have things to do

i tot if i could tak a cab back frm the airport i wont mind , but my aunty took off . decided not to go

wanted to go out with my cousin but the office left only both my parents , decided to not go and stay at shop to help out

i just got no mood today

wanted to take oxygen but think twice

wish i could but i gave my promise , i dont noe what to do

my thoughts are so tempting , for oxygen and something else

ur bday will be the last time i guess

i need to clear the whirl in my mind

HELP!

I NEED OXYGEN , I NEED HELP!

2009-10-05T13:12:00.002+08:00

its been 3 days since i lasst updated my blog
getting more and more boring , no body is read
no one knows
i guess nth much happen for the past 3 days , just work work work
i wanna get my itouch soon
been through alot of thinking and i still nid to do alot before its sorted out
mind in a whirl D:
maybe goin to the office is good , keeps myself busy
trusting you with all i have , i shall not question you , i have no right , i have no say
its ur right . i can only just be there for you
i just hope i can
things have been better now i guess , i hope
grand parents are goin oversea tml , will be sending them there . cause i like the feelin of sitting inside the taxi and relax
do you? i still do
last time when i wan drunk , wad i said was true
i have learn to move on , but i'm still not moving on
i'm giving myself time

2009-10-02T18:40:00.002+08:00

today was quite good i guess
morning had PE as the first 3 periods
didn't bother to bring my PE uni , went to PEG . played PSP slack and tried to sleep but failed , you readers must be thinking its boring right , INDEED ITS BORING but slacking also
went back to class and had 2 hours or 6 periods of subra , duper boring but cant sleep . dont noe why also
after that was recess , ate malay food with sufyan , faiz went home due to stomache (dont noe real 1 anot)
slacked and went back to class
was chem after recess , didnt even give a SHIT to angie low
slept and woke up
maths was boring as well
must study alrdy lah cannot always slack alrdy!
went to the library to slack with sufyan , hanjie , CMS , zhi yao and gonecase
they studied there while me and mutt mak fun of pple , tok cock and laugh alot!
after awhile he went home D:
hanjie wanted to go down and eat , pei him .
i didnt even know today there was a prefect meeting
saw and slacked
was quite surprise (really)
i really didnt know what to reply back than
sorry :X
jasmine and some pple played true or dare , didnt play . got kick afew times and squash some pple
the craziest thing was jasmine was being dare to ask me to kiss her
i was like HELL NO! i'm not so *ahem* okay
they went home all of them , the library was so quiet .
soon we all went home also
while walking to the front gate , saw her . i was like "huh?! is it for real?!"
didnt tok to her other than the bye
i didnt have the balls to or should i say i didnt noe how to tok to you D:
cab-ed home , played dota and here i'm bloggin

i'm all alone at home , will someone eat dinner with me? its kinda impossible :X

2009-10-01T16:10:00.003+08:00

some where we went wrong
today in the library split-ed up
3n1 was 1 group and 3n2&3n3 was in another group
i wondered what kept us together last time
everything was about the same , its the same i should say
i used to kept quiet last time when we sat together and since if i dont sit when them it doesn't make a difference does it , its just my existence only
they all had their Itouch , i hope i can get 1 soon also . wanted it long ago but didnt have the money to get it
see?! i'm poor and they all are rich
i found on the net , i wan a black itouch
maybe just a glance is enough , maybe we need more time before things can get better
i wondered if you are angry with me for the sms i sent , i didnt know what to reply so i replied thinking in process and since than you didn't reply
afraid to sms you
waiting by the phone day and night
waiting for whole day long
when will miracle happen
today , i was super nice :D
smile at almost everything
keep it up!
i wonder back last time , why do i feel angry/sad
i feel stupid back than hahaha , maybe i just have to throw away my face when i'm sms-in you
but how do i tok to u in RL? i wondered , its my prob :X

2009-09-30T15:15:00.002+08:00

today in school was no good at all?
did quite alot of thinking for the past 20+++ hours
i'm gettin more and more white hair OMG
hopping to get a solution soon
i wanna end all this shits
everything is gonna be alright
i'm trying to find all the words i can say but whats wrong , i dont feel right
its just not me when i'm with you , i mean seriously . i dont noe how to explain but its just ARRR!
during MT went to the library , slacked with the mutts
overall was funny , i tried to start a conversation with you , all i got was tio suan
i asked myself why am i doin all this
everything i sms you , i always hesitated . what if she is busy , what is she finds you irritating and many more .
recess was erm....boring? onli sec3 and some other pple was in the canteen
slept all the way after recess
i wanted to def for ur frend just now , but i just cant bring myself to . in the past i wasn't like tat.
i mean i used to be a friendy & caring guy (being BHB haha LOL)
but i'm not who i used to be or who i am
ok shall stop all the SHITS now
blog ltr or some other day
shall fight through the inner self of mine

2009-09-29T20:36:00.004+08:00

MY DAY WAS TOTALLY BORING AT HOME!
to show how bored i'm today , here is my 2nd post of TODAY
didnt do much things , just dota and one piece (NO LIFE!)
no idea what to do now
in the process of breaking down
emo-ed at home
mom came back home and rested for like 2 hours and off she went back to the office
blog ltr , gotta go out and get my medicine
back!
troubled again HELP!
i miss the times at the church
i miss the times when we walked to school , the times when we spent together
people do change
they already did change
wondering did they change or me
someone stop me frm the process of breaking down
sob sob , no one cares , no one bothers D:
ineedahug D:

2009-09-29T11:08:00.002+08:00

i give up
give up on everything
i dont noe what i'm up to lately
i have to think before i make a decision SERIOUSLY
haven been tinking lately
i mean it , without using my brain since school start
most of the time in sch didnt even tak out my pen/pencils
sick again -.- rotting at home all day
FUCK
goin break down soon D: help

2009-09-28T09:18:00.002+08:00

OMG i'm sick again.... D:
yesterday was having fever the whole day and coughing even when i'm trying to slp!
tats the worst of all
wanted to do some crazy shit yesterday like getting myself drunk even though when i'm sick , cousin stopped me and told me i'll be lying on bed for the next few days if i did . lol isn't is better that way?
wait NO , must cherish my life hahahaha
so boring sia sch .......
woke up at 6 this morning , mom came out to see whether i'm goin to school anot . told her after school than i go and see doctor , she was like oh ok if not if u nv go school than i go see doctor with you
scare i faint or sth lol
fuck it , my throat is fucking pain , dry and feels like shit sia
dam it
having headache , have to tahan through out the day
shit
lol
no pple jio me out sia so sian
being sick is no fun at all D:
so i'm in the com lab now , doin nothing at all other than bloggin
so sian

have i even really think seriously?

2009-09-27T15:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday and today was TOTALLY boring
yesterday went out to my office to help out
ate lunch at bugis , some japanese shop
the food there was AWESOME but it doesn't mak you full
exp food are like tat hahah , little and cant make you full
so around 6 left the office and off we went to changi airport
to sent my cousin's classmate off
i was wondering if i get the pay and can i ask the classmate to help me buy first :X
hoping to get the pay within next week :D
all the pple there was JIAO LANG
so funny can , cant stop laughin at all lor
ate dinner at macs at around 9.30
sorry didn't feel the vibration
reached home at 11 plus
slept , cant slp at first . watched TV till almost 2 , fell onto the bed and still i cant slp
......... coughing non - stop
this morning i woke up at 9.45 and slept again
didnt go out to the office , OMG they must be saying why i'm not in the shop ...zzzzz
anyway i'm sick now LOL
bye :}

2009-09-25T16:37:00.002+08:00

today in sch was VERI BORING!
PE we had PE test , shot a 3 pointer and aft tat queck tell me enough le :)
lol
slacked and had 6 period of subra
kinda strict but funny at times
LOL
now i hang out wif the MUDS , mini mud and dumb mud
i wonder why does she , jolene or sth . watever her name is
whenever she off the light and i just stare at her , she is like scare of sth . tried to help her out lol being frendy
hahahah , i dont LIKE her as in that kind of like
idk wad to do now
troubled
OMG
she is like super bored , reading a story book
haiz
just a glance
maybe there is really no chemistry between us
i plan to give up but i dont wish to
u were as strong as ever
so after school , went to cabin . heard some things
i hope not and i dont have the right to
i'm posting how i feel here but i just dont say it out
fell out with him
so there is him , there wont be me
i did NOTHING wrong , i tink so (correct me)

2009-09-24T15:04:00.003+08:00

last time there were still things that bought us together
once a week and its CLB
now that its gone , i dont noe when will we ever meet or really tok to each other in RL
maybe just a few sentences like "hi" "bye"
The time you spent doubting is the time you are not ...alive , i wish i could have clear all my doubts
hopeless me
sch was boring as usual
didnt even open my bag at all
slack through the whole day
tired bored
call me go out leh
i mean like meetin new people and stuff
sometimes when we start to cherish things , its too late , its gone
i'm just a simple minded guy but i believe in my 6th sense

quote of the day
cause you like to hold the things u wanna say

2009-09-23T21:52:00.003+08:00

i dont know how i feel today
i dont really remember how i feeel about this few days
today was VERY surprising
receive sms during assembly
smsed and chatted for awhile
i realise something , whenever you're bored than you'll sms me . i guess
after school , settled some problems
wanted to fight wif him but there was like so mani of them , decided to not fight . tio comb i die le
i know i shouldn't feel this way but i cant help it but jealous , i guess u're with them today
went mood-less
emo
thought about stuff
why must you come back whenever i wanna give up
its sort of a good thing
but whenever you come back , you made my mind goes wild
6th sense tells me so
now do you know what does it feels like when the person replies the same as you? its not easy to start a topic again , thats you and i have no right to change you , i'm no one
i have no right to be feeling this way or wadever also
i also have no right to feel jealous and stuff
maybe i'm just a spare tire
shall end here and post about it another day or sth
bye pple
no one is here D:

2009-09-22T12:42:00.002+08:00

ELLOS!
in sch com lap now , so boring
didn't do the practical so dont nid to do the evalutioin
DONT TAK F&N if u're a slacker LOL
so sat sun and mon went out to office to help out cause there is no worker in the office
did a hell lot of work
worked from like 11 to 5 non stop except for lunch breaks and toliet breaks
ate jacks place for sat MOF (ministry of food which is at bugis second floor) for sun and boon tong kee for mon
my parents are kinda screw up
sun they ask me wad i wanted to eat and i said either sushi or seoul garden , my mom than told me to eat sth else . kinda FUCK up sia , why do u ask me what i want to eat while u all ALREADY decided wat to eat
O.o taking courage to sms you
someone tell me what to do
today was totally shit
woke up kinda late this morning
manage to tak the 6.45 bus
went to the library for chinese and we splited up like wth
"she" was alone reading books at the back of the class \
sat with the malays , dom and viknesh
viknesh borrowed me the Itouch since he was using the com
after that was maths , some of them went into some M18 web , its not porn but digusting stuff
its digusting , the head got chop off and stuff
got gao wei and cant really eat during recess
slept during english for the whole 4 periods ( during maths , i was tinking of smsin you when its english . Didn't have the courage or the balls to)
recess slack with hanjie and sufyan , ate orta bread and drank milo
bored ! i still got 40mins to go before EOS (end of school)

2009-09-19T22:49:00.002+08:00

ELLOS!
life is boring
i just drank , pardon me for my rubbish later on and stuff
i wanna ask you a few questions and i know the answer you were to give me wont be a complete answer so decided not to ask you but i shall post it here
whats with the ignorance for the past week , i wondered if it was sth i did or wad
cheating a girls feeling doesn't feel good
FUCK
i shall post it here
jan 2009 i know this girl
been well with her
went out with her 1 on 1
forced to tok to her and stuff
sometimes being forced is good
so our relationship went on quite well
she is NOT my girlfriend
so after awhile i started to ignore her
due to her attitude and stuff
didn't really like her
so the day before yesterday i receive a sms frm her
and that night i cant slp
didn't know what to reply
and she counted the days since i didn't reply her
i felt bad
:( sad for her
but i didnt wan it to happen either
now i remain her as a friend only
love triangle

2009-09-17T13:31:00.002+08:00

Another boring post of mine
woke up at 10.30am , did nothing . idle away my time
played dota and blackshot , kinda boring when not mani pple are playing
decided to stop and rot
found some songs on youtube , listen them over and over again
bored shitless
yesterday got different comment abt my hair and soon i'll get more cause i'll be going back to school tml :)
and here is my day at home doing NOTHING
someone tell me , tell me something that is meaningful to do and kills time and it will help me

2009-09-16T18:04:00.003+08:00

today was kinda boring but i was myself today
woke up at lik 10 plus 11
didn't go to school cause wanted to take a break and since i bluff the doctor , why not rest at home
woke up > on com > receive sms > played > tinked of how to reply
had lunch and cab-ed back to school to meet up the rest and off we went to CLB
from after we left school , jordan kept quiet..... didn't know what he was tinking abt
went to J8 to slack for awhile b4 we went to CLB
they wanted to have ice-cream at hagen daz cause they had an ice-cream buffet
after some thoughts , decided to go for CLB
i got 67 and jordan got 65 , jasmine go 30+++
Yanyan got 70 oveer 100 , she fails her normal chinese tats why she take CLB . LOL
dont noe why i just dont really feel like tokin after the CLB
maybe its just whenever i talk , i either get suan , get whack or dont noe wad
i really dont noe how to anymore . Yanyan and jasmine started shootin ice at us ( jordan , me and arina, dont noe how to spell her name)
got shot once and after that walked to newton MRT , arina saw me tripping and she made fun of me
the next moment Yanyan came to try to make me fall , commentless hahah . i can blow my top but i didnt wan anyone to see it so i choose not to :D and i dont wan them to stop distrub-ing me. sometimes its fun like this and in this way :)
so my day is so boring , shall find a day and post everything
i mean every detail if i can
so long pple bye!

4th day without you

2009-09-15T14:55:00.003+08:00

hey pple!
just came back from the doctor
school was kinda boring today
first period was chinese , went to library and crap-ed
things are never the same as before , people change
you're not the old you
Yanyan was makin the lantern again ..... Richard was playing with the Itouch
the rest was just crapping around
mr koh didn't come so slept for the entire 3 period and english was VERY boring
slept most of the time cause english was from 9.20 - 10.50
one and a half hours
didn't go down for recess cause i was too tired , called darrel to buy me bread and milo
Bio was sort of boring
F&N SUX!
didn't manage to complete the research , decision making and planning . Dont plan to go to school on thursday cuz got practical and i haven finish doing my homework.
School finally ended
went to see the doctor and told him all the shits
37.3 going to have fever already , took a 2day MC from him so i wont be going to school on wednesday and thursday .

I don't know how to communicate with you SORRY :(
maybe time will tell me what is going to happen

EDIT
I just went to cut my hair and now its super style LOL
cut like dominic like tat , but after styling kinda nice :D
Comment abt my hair thx!

2009-09-14T14:21:00.000+08:00

its been 3 days , speechless . maybe i should not anymore
3 smses and it doesn't work , GG
ok lets start with yesterday , went out to the office to help out and found out that all the trucks are back and they needed to return to the normal form .
dam the people lah , make OUR job so difficult .
packed 3 trucks and was dam tiring juz feel lik slpin but cant D:
fast forward . headed home and didnt feel lik eatin rice .
no mood and was too tired .
Today
woke up late and rush everything
came to sch and school was boring
they had an SEX talk lol , kinda gross .
after that had chinese , dont noe what to comment abt that .
recess>didnt go down to eat > mr sim come in to catch hair and called us to lower our volum
got caught by sim
after recess , maths went to the com lap to slack
SS was super boring , cant slp also
queck come in again
didnt get caught this time round
so didnt bother to cut
There are some things in life that will only be understood through words.

2009-09-11T14:55:00.002+08:00

what happened? i wondered for the past few days
like that day , someone said the same thing as a said , your reaction wasn't was bad as that day . Maybe its the thing , i'm not sure also .
i wonder whats the problem now , maybe you just dont feel like sms-in me now . or is it something you dont like .
Maybe being friends now and than is better , but i'll never hesitate to give it a second "go"
Edit
wondered whats wrong this few days , maybe you really didnt want to talk to me thats why you never reply me . or is it you really didnt see it? i hope you will be honest with me and tell me what is wrong or what i did wrong :(

2009-09-10T15:16:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Jordan's house
Yesterday after my dinner at some vegetarian restaurant , went to Ian's house to meet up with the rest (Yanyan , Ruimin , Jordan)
They played the drums while i played some plane game , very cool and nice!:D
After that bus-ed to Jordan's house to ton , its like 12am already . Send Ruimin to Toa Payoh MRT and lucky she got onto the last train .
Went back to jordan's to slack , download some movie to watch . Final destination 3 , Final destination 4 and some funny movie .Jordan's father asked us whether we want to go and have supper with them anot , since we all are hungry we agreed . We had lak si le mak (i don't know how to spell it ) had a cup of teaC to keep myself from falling asleep . Yanyan didn't want to watch the Final destination 4 cause its kind of gross , changed the movie and by the times its like 2am plus already . Watch the Funny movie for awhile and we are kinda tired already , so Yanyan slept on the MORE comfortable chain . I offered her to the chain cause she was sitting on the mini stairs and we both are sitting on the chair , not really gentleman . Offered her my sit and so she took the more comfortable chair .
I didn't sleep well for the whole night , my hands keep on cram-ing due to laying it on it too much ( my head put on the hand than numb)
Both slept so sweet , although Yanyan woke up quite a number of times . I fake asleep :X
Before i sleep , Jordan called me to put the alarm at 6 so we can go and have our breakfast .
5.45am I tired to woke them up and they gave me ignorance . The feeling is not good at all
Tired to wake them up a number of times and they just fell back into their LALA LAND
Decided to not wake them up anymore , Jordan told me to wake them up again at 7.15 or something cause the sun raise already . Didn't make it PS
8am Yanyan tired to wake me up but by the time i was too tired already , she woke me up and say "eh... its 8am already , wan go eat breakfast ?" I just fell back to sleep SORRY :(!
They sleep till 11am plus , i woke up at like 9am or something , watch them sleep .
Finally they woke up and slack abit , played with the dog than we went for our lunch below Yanyan's house .
She need to be home by 1pm cause they are going out , the mother canceled it last minute . Went back up to put her bag first cause it was kinda heavy , went to buy bubble tea and she suddenly said she wants to go home and rest so escorted her back home . We got scared by her =.=
Turn my dream into reality , pretty please

2009-09-09T17:29:00.004+08:00

yo pple , just came back from east coast park . Went there to skate , all of us fell expect ruimin (all of us=Yanyan , Jordan , Ian and me) Went to jordan house at 12 , put the voka in the house and the father ask me "eh... where u get such a big bottle of voka " i replied "oh cause put very long already than very dusty " hahhahaa =.=
walked to toa payoh to meet the rest of them , there were at mos burger waiting already . Slack and than decided to go to east coast park than eat , train to city hall > change train > reach Bedok > took 16 > walked abit and finally we reach the ECP . When we are renting the skates that time , we asked the guy how much is it to rent till 6 . He replied if there are four of you , i can give u all a discount but i need to go at 5 . After the discount was $16 but the actual price was $20 , for the benefits of others i paid abit more so they can get the skates for longer time and paying lesser .
Skated fell , jordan wrist got problem . I mean when he fall that time , he didn't land properly so i think the nerves got block or something . Yanyan is going to bring him to the sing seh later . I fell and scratched my knee and my other knee knock into a pole , freaking numb sia . I gave them my words saying that i'll ton with them tonight but after my mom called me i told them ps lah don't know can anot . Jordan said he will feel awkward if i can't ton with them tonight .
Gave my mom attitude just now cause they last minute tell me sia , at least if you tell me earlier things will be better . I twisted my ankle i think , when i walk now , its painful. FUCK
I hope i can go ton with them later , I wont message you cause u'll be entertained by the people there . Hope your burn mark is better now :D
FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKING BITCH SAY BE BACK BY LASTEST 5 AND NOW YOU SAY AFTER 7 DEN WE MOTHER FUCKING GO FOR THE KA NI NA DINNER?! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU . FUCK OFF BITCH FACE

2009-09-09T10:04:00.003+08:00

OMFG i cant slp at night , WTF. yesterday was kinda fun , didnt make the wrong decision .
The BBQ was kinda boring but yet fun ..... idk how to explain but all we did was make fun of pple , i didnt . The rest of them did , they made fun of mr.gunawan and mr.koh wei ping . yesterday was also viknesh birthday , arthar chai , nabil , hashim bought a packet of condom for him lol
met hashim at 4pm sharp at AMK mrt waited for another 40mins or so for the rest , bus-ed there . We made a hell lot of noise on the bus and started to blast musics in the bus . reach-ed sat down played poker surprisingly i didn't play money at all , all i spent yesterday was $20 on cab =.=||
we screw up the fire at first and than hashim came to our rescue , started the fire , started BBQ-in chicken wings and stuff kinda fun . ps i broke my promise .
than started tokin shits and the girls started cam-whorin (or wadever i dont noe how to spell it)
they started pullin guys and teachers and girls to take pics with them ...... i'm one of the victim also
Reach home around 12 , cant get to slp till 2am plus 3am dam it lah
i'm lazy to post everything so this is a short cut of what i did yesterday

2009-09-08T11:21:00.003+08:00

hey pple :D
i dream of something that i shouldn't be dreaming of .
Don't know want to go for my class BBQ anot , i'm like sick but its gonna be fun . Sure got liquor and cig de ahhaha , but i'm gonna control myself cause i gave my promise to someone . Not planning to ton with them cause wed they all goin to ton also . There is a chinese saying that , if you are really drunk , you will be speaking the truth . I'm just waiting endlessly , Silly and foolish fool waiting for you .
I shall not emo here lol i dont noe what to update also , its just boring in my life . yesterday my dad's friend passed away , they went to sit there for a night and they still need to work . sob D: , they are reali tired i noe .
Maybe its just fated to be like this , i just can stay by your side and be your guarding angel and supporting you in silence . its not a private blog anymore .
whats wrong? i dont feel happy like how i do last time , not even a smile from the bottom of my heart . troubled , help me SOMEONE

2009-09-07T11:14:00.004+08:00

My life is so boring man , yesterday went to office to help out with my parents . Clean all the cameras and stuff , learn a few things .
Skip skip skip ate my breakfast at 11 and my lunch at 4.30 , the timing is very mess up .
So Yanyan asked me whether we wants to go to her church camp , they go i go thats what i told her . Joke with her , she knows lol hahahah . so lunch-ed at bukit timah .
After that went to NTUC at orchard , bought lots of stuff . Almost needed 2 trolleys and i hope it will last for more than 2 weeks ba .
went home skipped my dinner due to my late lunch and throat inflection
waiting by the phone , but nothing seems to come in . hahaha Yanyan went back to the army open house with her cousins, she invited me to go but i dont noe her cousin and stuff so didnt wan to go . guess she is havin a great time playin the games there hahaha . lol i'm bored shitless so i'm typin nonsense and shits!
i cant reali tok nw , my throat hurts .
didnt go out to the office today cuz my cousin went and my mom told me if i go work for her during the 1 week holiday which is nw , she will pay me . lol i dont even hav time and lazy sia .
hope i'll still get my pay and den go eat sth good!
its so boring at home , doin nth but juz watchin TV and using com
i'm sick and i didnt wan to go and see a doctor :X
i want to go for my class BBQ and the ton-ing with the rest , decided not to tell them anything and juz keep quiet . Now my grandma knows , i'm forced to drink herbal tea and stuff IT SUX
call the ambulance for me if i pass out anytime
is there anything wrong with us? i dont noe but i tink there is something u dont like me or sth , i reali dont noe but through the way you tok to me now . its so abnormal compared to last time ...... you said wad u said yesterday was not true . what i said that time was true . i sense something is wrong / you dont reali wan to message me and stuff :X sorry

2009-09-05T12:43:00.004+08:00

yo pple i'm here to keep my blog alive :D
yesterday was juz awesome , school ended at 10 meet up with the rest (ian , jordan , yanyan and ruimin ) bus-ed to j8 .
Ate subway DAM it the whole sandwich was almost $20 dollars but luckily i shared it with jordan , so it was like $10 . Decided to take TAXI to the army open house cause if we were to take bus it takes a long time and MRT need to change , so we saved all the trouble .
So there was 5 of us including me and we couldn't manage to phyco the taxi driver , the girls went onto the cab first . Waited for around 20 mins than we got an cab , the driver drive kinda slow . Reach Boon Lay interchange , saw the army open house shuttle bus .
Bus-ed to the open house , we went to play the live shooting first . FUN sia , real gun real bullet . Its like dam exciting lor but the smell sucks , We must deposit our bag for safe keeping . There was only 5 bullets kinda less D: but its exp i know . Before we can get out of the live shooting , we must surrender all our belonging for checking lol .
After that went to the NAFA Thing , first we did the shuttle run (of cuz lah its our best out of so many ) they said dont nid use full blust de so i ran kinda slow , they despite me D: , decided to give it a second try . Beat all the rest (the 4 of them) their system is kinda cool lah i must admit . Its all electronic , so NO CHEATING AT ALL lol . The chin up , didnt do cause i dont wanna lose face >.< . Next Standing board jump , its electronic as well . Yanyan broke the record for the girls . Got present , happy lah . jordan beat me in the standing board jump :(
We move on to the Flying fox , all of us did it . Yanyan went first followed by rui min , jordan , me and than ian . All of us was scared at the beginning . Veri fun and exciting :D . Rui Min and me went for our second try , i ran and jump down haha . They called me to let go of my hands but i was scared so didnt do it .
They went for their helicopter ride , they went to do some quiz and the person gave them the answers , so they went for the ride lor . See girls got advantage sia . so there they went . We thought it was juz lik 20 mins or sth but in the end we waited for like 1 hour plus , they told us that they will be there in lik 20 mins so we waited and didnt do any games , we waited for around 50 mins den we decided to sms her again , they told me give them another 5 mins , we waited and after another 20-30mins they have not reach . we were kinda pissed already . They said we're on their way and when they reach than they explain to us , heard the explanation and they made some excuse but she regretted going for the ride because after she went for the ride , she is having headache (SORRY, u're having a headache and i was still treating you like that). Become mute for awhile , We went to the TES (forget what it means) while q-in up saw the label saying , expected waiting time 1 hour . Pointed out to them , they said ok . Went for the briefing and we really waited for almost 1 hour or more . The game was just 4 mins , got killed 3 times and i killed quite alot i tink , very fun .
Yanyan got her leg burned , went to the medic . Applied some cream and put plaster , after awhile she took it off cause it didnt stick and restricted the skin from moving . She was walking lik a bai-ka , offered to carry her but she suan me back (no comment) took the shuttle bus to Boon Lay interchange again and went to Yanyan's house for dinner .
Her mom cooked lazina ( dont know how to spell it) , It was lik awesome . How i wish my parents will do that for me sia , My dad is a good cook but he always doesn't have time to cook for us . played X-box for awhile and than homed . talked to my elder cousin for awhile , about what we both are facing now . talked till 1 plus
I didnt have a good night sleep for 3 days , the 3 days before yesterday night .

2009-09-02T18:55:00.004+08:00

For a second i hated you but i wondered if it was just a comment or was it real

woke up at like 6am this morning , get prepare and ate my breakfast . My breakfast was actually milo balls lol

so bus-ed to school , there was not much people in the class actually . Went for the morning assembly , wondered some things (wild thoughts)

so after that miss chan told us to have us to have our breakfast , decided to drink HL Chocolate (good for health)

so waited for the bus to come and stuff , crapped a little .Miss chan does have a car now , kinda surprise and she juz got it =.=

so in NYP , break again . wondered why on earth must we have so much break but i kinda like it , explored the school and we actually got lost . Due to a smart ass like me , they manage to find their way to the Macs

food there were really cheap , cheaper compared to outside .

so didnt eat cause i wasn't really hungry , after that went to the microbio lap . The smell inside the lap really stinks and the worst thing was we have to go in and out of the lap . i finally got used to the smell and we have to go out again WTF . They showed us the show slides and stuff , kinda surprise that i can answer the questions maybe its cause the way he teach bah , i prefer poly life than to secondary life hahaha .

so after that the teachers there got the students to show us around the poly , its veri big compared to our school :X . They also have a mini shopping centre so cool sia lol

so after that we had our break again , see ? got wad i mean? This break is long VERI long started at lik 11.10 and we're suppose to be back there by 12.45

crapped a little and off i went back to school , i had to walk for like 10mins before i can get out of the dam poly , so took a slow walk to yishun MRT

MRT-ed to Bishan and bus-ed back to the schools front gate , went back into school to wait for the rest of the pple (yanyan and jordan)

Yanyan tried to scare me but the security guards eye betrayed him so its EPIC FAIL LOL , jordan came and walked to J8 , wanted to buy the chinese dict but its kinda ex so didnt buy , went down to breadtalk yanyan bought some buns and we're off to ACS barker

From after school till we reach ACS barker , that was a quiet journey dont ask me why but i dont know

copied the crystals answers , hope i'll get high marks :D if not i'm gonna screw her jkjk

when finish that time this silly woman (no offence , no harsh feeling also) message me and i'm kinda happy hahaha . Every little thing you do , it makes a difference . so sms-ed her and the exam finished , slack around and go to an irish restaurant . The burger there is nice but the place was kinda dirty , having flies around and stuff . so screw up a little . i'll remember this "brainless , once brainless always brainless" for a second i hated you and was kind angry but i told myself , i dont bear grudge for long and what i hate about myself is being veri soft-hearted and all . after awhile i'm ok already , bastard arianna quite a bit SORRY D:

walked back to newton and mrt-ed home and i pon my training today cause i wanted to blog . scared that i'll forget what i'm gonna post

i have not told anyone my link yet , doubt anyone will find this blog .

the thing i hate about you is u dont usually reply long and i really speed up my brain cells to think of a topic and stuff and all i got back was just a short and incomplete answer , maybe we're really having a communication problem . i tried veri hard but it doesn't seem to work , like just now , i asked if you skipped your dinner and ur reply was just no , or maybe u just dont feel like toking to me . i dont know what to do now , wanted to give up but you never fail to attract me back . i see jealousy in your eyes , tell me something i do not know

what i said just now was to save me from all the embarrassment , sorry . actually i didnt want ur hand to be cut again . maybe what i did just now made u unhappy and thats why u're like that . SORRY :(

signing myself off from here.

Bye pple

2009-09-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

Hey pple!
yea you're right , Ong Ranjie is back!
back to post about my boring life again hahahah
I've decided to delete all my post and restart my blog , so here goes
woke up at 8.30 dis morning get prepared and so
waxed my hair and got to the bus stop at lik 9.10 , i'm suppose to meet them ( ian , yanyan , jordan Rui min) at toa payoh centre at 9.30 and i know that i'm gonna be late :X
so decided to meet jordan first at his house , met him at the bus stop and walked to toa payoh . They went to mac and sat down there , so went to mac to have our breakfast . All of us ate
lol den rui min came and bused to kallang . Slack till 1 so we have an extra 20 mins hahah , i know its kinda cheap skate lah .... so went around kallang window shopping .
During ice skating , i juz kept quiet due to certain reasons . No one knows
Fast forward....... After skating went down to the first story , saw things and tested it out and found out its true so all 5 of us bought it . shall not explain cuz its kinda long ahha
so after that waited for the shutter bus to Kallang MRT , went up the bus crapped abit , MRT-ed to City Hall . Went to eat cause we didn't have our lunch and its like 4 plus already so went to KFC cause someone have craving for the chicken , bought the ultimate box (have a drum stick , burger , drink and mash potato ) offered her the chicken drum stick and she rejected it . no comment
went to the apple authorised reseller and ask some stuff . Headed to United square and they said they want to go to the army thing on friday so i decided to buy MC cause i have to go to NYP till 5 on friday . Bus-ed to united square , fooled around toyRus and soon ian went for his drums , continued to fool around for awhile more and went to Udders for ice cream . Paid for it , had some fun .
Sometime being honest is a better choice
soon ian finished his drums and send all of them off , meaning i waited for all of them to go up the bus den i went home . Maybe its kinda stupid but thats me , cant help it
so bus-ed home and slack and here i'm here bloggin .
thats my day and here are some things i wanna say about
There are some things in life that will only be understood through words
good bye readers if there is any